Anyone punish themselves with bad thoughts?
Lately, I find myself injecting images of something I really hate-actually phobic about-into everyday thoughts. I’ll be turning down the bedsheets and bam!-make myself imagine this thing–or I’ll be eating and suddenly imagine this in my food, etc.. Pretty gross and twisted stuff. Why is my mind doing this to me????
The same happens to me from time to time. I have suffered from OCD (Obsessive-compulsive disorder) in the past and I don’t know if this is part of it, but remember that I am not a psychiatrist. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/OCD
Obsessions:
“Recurrent and persistent thoughts, impulses, or images that are experienced as intrusive and inappropriate and that cause marked anxiety or distress.”
I hate slugs and sometimes I imagine them everywhere and even check under my shoes or think that I am going to see them in my food. Sometimes I think I am going to get insane. I have learned to keep my thoughts to myself because I don’t want to be judged. Only the one that suffers from this condition may understand what is going on. I talked to my daughter about it and she told me that she has the same problem. We were watching, “A Haunting,” and then her mind started to tell her that she wanted to get possessed. She was terrified!
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Try to think of something in your life that might be making you feel worried or insecure, and why. Then, think of nice things, and these images will gradually fade from your mind.
Try to adopt a positive attitude towards every aspect of your life. For example, if you are going shopping for say, a new outfit and you find nothing you like, instead of thinking “That was a wasted journey”, think “Well, had I not gone, I would have been wondering whether I would have got something if I had.”.
I know at the moment you might not see a connection, but I promise you that the more positivity you have, the less likely you are to have these thoughts - but most of all, don’t see them as a punishment. I’m sure you have a very good friend whom you can talk to about these thoughts, which will very likely help.